Pre-Cursing My Mission

As my MTC (Missionary Training Center) date inches closer and closer, the excitement and thrill I have to serve my mission continues to grow...immensely. Every day, God gives me a peak into how magnificent my mission will be. Tears, laughter, love, frustration, growth, strength, patience, understanding...I'm pretty sure the list can go on endlessly. My mission is going to help me out so much. But because this is going to be something so good for me, there is a ton of opposition that comes along with it.

Man it is hard to stay on top of my emotions. I feel like every day is another day full of struggles to get rid of feelings of depression, discouragement and self-criticalness. And honestly, this is pretty much the hardest part of my life so far.

If this is what it takes to be a missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, then so be it. I will endure. I guess I am just wondering how well and how I can endure these next 70 days before my mission.

So ya.....why do I feel the need to blog about it? I guess to just try and get out of it. Or maybe ask for you out there for suggestions for help in this time of my life.